Since the age of 14 years old, I have battled with my weight. 19 years later and I must share, I still have not completely overcome my battle. I am not who I used to be but I still know I can do better. In this post I want to share about something that not many people who change their lifestyle and lose weight talk about.
Getting healthy and losing weight is great, but there is so much more that comes with it. Emotionally, mentally and spiritually…trying to get comfortable in your “new body” is not easy. It’s something you can want for years and years but when it finally happens, it can take an emotional toll on you. I remember when my weight started to come off, my clothes looked big and floppy on me causing many comments. I didn’t have money to go out every 2 weeks to buy new clothes. I wasn’t doing much to lose the weight aside from eating healthy but these are some of the comments I heard along the process:
“We better get a drug test on you.”
“Are you okay?”
“I liked you better before when you could eat everything.”
“You were much more fun before.”
Blown away by many of these comments, I had days that I wish no one would comment on the changes that were taking place…whether they were good or bad.
I’m not a woman that typically suffers from low self-esteem but I remember questioning myself in the process. Is this what becoming skinny is about? If so, I don’t want it. I just wanted to be fit, healthy, a temple that would Glorify God, but my emotions were going wacky. It wasn’t until I reminded myself that I need to be comfy with me regardless of what everyone says. I can’t thrive off of peoples’ affirmations or their negative comments. If so, I will be unstable in my ways. I needed to stand before God and be okay with what He was doing in my life. If you have low self-esteem before you lose weight, you will have it afterwards. If you don’t know who you are in Christ when you reach your goal, that goal will become an idol.
For those of you that are trying to lose weight, trying to gain weight, trying to just make good and godly decisions in your life, remember that the word says in Psalms 139:14 “You are fearfully and wonderfully made.” Whether you are big, skinny, tall or short, connect with that truth first and then move forward in your journey remembering that you can do ALL things through Christ who strengthens you. Take care of your body, mind and soul but never forget who you are in the process!
Can you relate to this? If so comment below.
Glory, Grub & Grind 